I feel pressured that I did something.
I think I just didn't like the people around me (how they were being mean to me) and was upset at being told to feel someone in a way I don't want to or doesn't exist a lot, and that did it supposedly. That's very unusual, to be told to feel that person so much in a way I dislike. I didn't even say anything mean back, and I find this very out-of-place. Maybe, I'm just mean in general in how I feel about people being mean to me.
I'm being told I don't have a relationship anymore. I wonder if I should have stayed home but not for my sake. I know I gained weight from resting for my hurt back. Huh. I should reinstate a workout schedule today. I was out other days late. It probably helped me tho to go out. Last time I didn't get skinny was from going to morning masses instead of exercising then or other than jogging much later on.